It was Nadeera, a friend of mine
who first told me about blogs. Later on I developed a fascination regarding
blogging, but didn’t really want have a blog of my own because I felt that I
was not quite ready to start a blog. But when I realized that the poems that I
had written in small pieces of paper were getting misplaced overtime, I
understood the importance of keeping my writings safely, so that later someday
I myself can read them again without having to find them all over the place. I
felt if I posted them in a blog it will not only be secure but also more
productive, as a wider audience can give me feedback about my work. Therefore I started a blog in which I wrote
poems in both Sinhala and English languages. But then I felt that having a
bilingual blog can be a little messy. So I started two blogs, My life my way in
English and හිත අද්දර in Sinhala. But yet again I was feeling insecure
about making my writings public as I felt that they are not good enough. So I
made my blogs readable only to me by changing the settings of “who can see your
blog?” from “anyone” to “authors only”. But later on I felt that there is no
point in having a blog if I didn’t want others to see it. So I again changed my
settings to “anyone”, and today I am glad that I did it :)
Out of the two blogs, somehow
my English blog is more close to my heart. When I go to bed at night until I
fall asleep, I keep on composing poems…and when I wake up the following day, if
I still remember the verses, I quickly write them down in a piece of paper so
that I can later post them in my blog. But unfortunately the past year was not
a one that encouraged me to write. I had to go through a lot of difficult
phases that resulted in a drop in my enthusiasm towards any artistic work. My
personal problems had a very bad impact on my two blogs, as whenever I was
having issues I tend to stay away from everything including my blogs. But I
tried my level best to keep reading others' blogs and thereby keep my
fascination towards blogs afloat.
Now in retrospect, I feel that I wasn’t able to write as much as
I wanted. My life my way is not a very popular blog that has caught the
attention of so many people. I am very well aware that the poems in it aren’t up to
a very high standard. But this is something that has become a part of my life,
which now I can hardly part with. Even though I am not able to update my blog
regularly, I enjoy reading the things that I have written earlier as well as
the comments that I have received.
Sometimes I feel ashamed that even after a
year has elapsed I still have only ten posts in the blog. It is not because
that I am bored with it or something, but purely because I have not been able
to keep peace of mind over the past year, which is very essential to keep
writing. As I have mentioned in a previous post of mine, I feel that I
have started my blogs in one of the most irksome times of my life. In the
coming year I really hope that I will be able to stay in touch with my blog
more often.
Finally I have to be grateful
to all of you for visiting my humble blog and encouraging me through your
comments. It is your feedback that motivates me to keep on writing. Therefore I
most eagerly look forward to your support in the coming year as well.
So thank you very much my dear
friends…. You have been my strength over the past year and it has been an
absolute pleasure to have you guys around :D :D :D
